Cause Im trying to hear my voice, for the first time, since my chilhood( Joseph Campbell here) If what I heard is true.
Take a look in my english... there is a bunch of holes. My structure sucks. I have no grammar... but I have passion, feelings and balls to dont give a fuck and write anyway. I do it with my heart... this is all I have.
And I was the same with my work, with my art... I was just feelings and 0 structure. I didnt had time for it. I was just doing, like a crazy horse with tons of stamina but no direction.
But I knew a great professional in Poland and I had the honnor to work with him side by side: Bartek Gawel. This bad to the bone showed me how a trully professional works ... with solid knowledge. Sólid! Unbreakable. But metaphisic at the same time.
I have a history to tell since I was a boy! I really want to try to tell it.. .and fuck it if this thing goes well or not.. at minimum I will have a original portfolio to show to my future clients.. And I will use this little project as my clay...to sharp my tools and mold my skills to the point that I feel confortble to work again. Of course I ll be working during this time but my goal right now is: try to put more knowledge in my viewpoint...to put some light in this dark that is my mind right now. I wish this plan make sense, cause this is all I have... I am climbing in the dark, afraid as fuck.. just following my heart. I will work extra for it.
Time to time I will be dropping some studies here, but for now I want to do it just for myself, focusing in hear that voice... that whisper that comes from the mind when we stay alone just with our thoughts.
This is why this blog is so empty, dark and silence... cause I am working with the doors closed... just a moment. Wish me luck!
See ya fellows!
